I developed body image issues at an early age, where I never felt comfortable in my own skin. I started swimming competitively at the age of five. My uniform was a swim suit, which is essentially like working out in your underwear everyday.
When I was in high school, I went through cycles of severe calorie restriction followed by episodes of binge eating. I developed an unhealthy obsession with food and would diet myself down to my ‘goal’ weight over and over again.
I was obsessed with the number on the scale and never happy with my reflection. This unhealthy relationship with food and self-image followed me into my 20’s. I was exhausted from fighting an internal battle and being plagued with self-doubt. I was always searching for solutions and ultimately wanted to feel a sense of peace.
We all want to feel comfortable in our own skin. Our self-concept is the belief we hold about about ourselves and is essential to self-love. I’m not going to pretend that I have it all together. Food and self-acceptance are still challenges, but I’ve slowly found peace with myself through CrossFit and the Worthy family.
Throwing away my scale and learning to fuel my body to be strong (not skinny) was a mental shift. It’s great to be surrounded by a community that believes in me when I don’t always believe in myself and to have coaches that take the time to educate on what ‘food as fuel’ really means.
By: Conner Edelbrock